in the begining.

I was not sure how to begin. All I want to do is express myself, my life and what this life means to me. Which is not, incidently, what I thought it meant 10 years ago. There was a time I thought that age and beauty meant everything. I would have died to be thin - and incidently neally did. A time when I thought being young was everything and a time when I thought this was all it was ever going to be. So blinded in the state of now and all its unhappiness there was a time that if this was all it was going to be I would opt out and in my youth I tried this too. How shallow. I now realise that not only is there a pattern emerging, but also we are not just a 100 year life expectancy of cells that live and die, we are part of a univeral eternal being that is on a journey. Thats what I want to explore.....the why we are here, the rules for living, the journey and the what happens next. There is a greater purpose to being and to why we are here living...what jusifys our existance and what is it all for, and if there is a greater being then there are lots of questions about why bad things happen to good people.